My reasons for creating this diary and blog

A Life of Enquiry

I'm creating a narrative with regard to owning French property, having purchased a renovation project! As a result I think I am 'growing up' in retirement age. I try to conceal a personal, private story apart from a public story but that which I share, indicates a journey in My Life. I'm confronting life-long behaviour patterns and emotions. Fluctuating levels of sanity or insanity arrive as I strive to correct 'mistakes' and yet these have created who I am. Courage and confidence have to be learned. I try not to seek approval or disapproval. I know who I am when I feel happiness being as free as the wind walking on the beach. No beaches where I live!Since the 1970s without influence I developed my own ideas about the primary classroom and that EDUCATION should instil ENQUIRY. One of the most important gifts for the child is to develop confidence. It is learned. It is vital not to become passive nor aggressive, but to become assertive and express one's opinion. Despite teaching this, I did not learn it! Being proactive to make a decision and choice requires confidence. My parents never encouraged me/ taught me to be confident so I wonder if my own children learned their confidence from their life with me? I definitely tried to impart it to the primary children who were receptive in my classroom but with my own children I think I was more strict!
In my later life I acknowledge that every action, look, word, thought has consequences and that we choose every second of the day what the future will be! My own children seem to have learned this before me and have become self-assured adults. I'm still learning to begin to manage thought and conduct and still I make mistakes. I believe that we have the power to make changes that should not hurt anyone and it is important to be considerate of others. But when sometimes thoughts and feelings are projected onto us, it is more about the person the observations emanate from. It is better to walk away. I try to live by observing the outside-of-me-myself-world and heed my intuition.
I have come to my house to enquire about many things. It asks me to be patient, calm, active and it would like me to be confident and have more courage.
I love my place in France but I miss my home. I enjoy living in one of the most beautiful villages in France but yearn for the beaches, reedbeds, pretty houses, cream scones and Adnams beer of the Suffolk and Norfolk coastlines.
I miss the sound of the sea.
"A home is where a heart is and my heart is in France as well as near the sea and the East Anglian coast. When I love two or more places, I can enjoy being wherever I am, and when I go from one place to the other I can always look forward to going home!"